I have a new obsession. It’s not running, or hiking, or drawing, or sewing, or knitting, or homeschooling, or being an organized housewife, or even blogging (obviously!).
I know me. And I’ve come to accept and appreciate me. I’m like that dog in Up!.
I am happiest when I find a new topic to pour my residual mommy energy into. For the most part, I feel drained and overwhelmed. But when I find a new hobby to explore, I somehow find the energy to… be me. And so I won’t apologize or believe that it’s bad that I start learning something new and then give it up after a few months when I’ve gotten my fill.
My newest obsession revolves around books. It all started with the GoodReads book challenge. So much has happened and, as usual, I’m kicking myself for not blogging about it along the way. I’ll try filling you in with a bullet format. I think that will be easier to digest…
- Signed up for the GoodReads book challenge
- Spent an entire day picking out books for most of the 52 weeks. That was super fun!!
- Talked to my mom about this silly idea that maybe I could work at the library when the kids are all in school.
- To my relief she got so excited and suggested I look up the Masters in Library and Information Science program at San Jose State University. It’s entirely online!
- I looked up the program and fell in love.
- And then got sad because it costs $20,000… actually $24,000 for in-state. That’s right! More expensive for in-state!!
- Remembered that the military came out with the Post 9/11 GI Bill after I got out of the Air Force.
- Did some research and applied for it. I think I might qualify for 60% tuition coverage!
- Ran into my neighbor on the way home from the bus stop. She works at the library! She talked about how great it was working part-time there when her kids were in school.
- The next day I run into another neighbor that I’ve never met. She runs a home daycare and happens to be friends with the librarian at my kids’ school. She is thinking about retiring this summer or next! My neighbor says all I need is a bachelors degree so I should apply since I’ll get all the same holidays off as the kids. Great idea!
- I look into the application process for the school librarian position. All city positions seem to have a requirement of 3 letters of recommendation. Not an easy feat when you’ve had little contact with adults over the last 6 years.
- Online, I find two of my former supervisors from my job that I left in 2008. I’ll have to ask them for letters of recommendation. I’m nervous about that.
- I sign up to volunteer at my local library. They are thrilled that I want to work in the children’s section because most of the volunteers are old and have a hard time kneeling down and reading the authors last name on the spine.
- I speak with the school librarian about volunteering. It’s the most awful and awkward conversation. It seems I’m not longer able to speak intelligently to strangers. This makes me even more excited about going back to school and working in a library.
- Visited my mom in Sacramento without the kids.
- Spent several hours exploring Sacramento Library. It is an amazing library! I got myself a library card and borrowed at least a dozen books. I also bought 4 paperbacks for $2 at their book shop.
- We went to Beers Used Book Store. I found 3 textbooks on children’s and young adult literature! Also 8 Beatrix Potter books for $1 each!
- Last Thursday I worked in the city library for the first time! I shelved children’s books for an hour. I thoroughly enjoyed it! I know it doesn’t seem like the funnest thing ever. But I really do think it’s time for me to change my career.
- Found out I am eligible for the Post 9/11 GI Bill!
I feel so thankful that Shane allowed me the opportunity to stay home with the kids. But I’ve been doing it for almost 7 years and becoming increasingly unhappy. Another thing I’m not going to apologize for. I’ve always believed that a mom, if allowed the choice, should do whatever she needs to be the happiest person she can be. It’s nearly impossible to be a good mom when you’re miserable.
The feeling I had after spending just 1 hour shelving books confirms that this could be really good for me. For a long time I’ve felt like I don’t want to go out and talk to people. I’m already an introvert and when I don’t feel happy, I want to talk to people even less. But yesterday, I felt so happy and had a conversation with an old man about lettuce in the produce section. I didn’t even care that I am, at this point in my life, socially retarded. At some point he stopped talking to me and walked away after deciding to go with the escarole.
I feel like this obsession might turn into something permanent. It just makes sense. I’ve always loved books. I have been a little disappointed in myself that I enjoy collecting books and reading books about books more than reading proper literature. It’s also motivating me to actually read books. Albeit lots of them kid’s books because I’m really interested in being a children’s librarian. I’m not sure I will actually complete the GoodReads challenge, but I’m glad I did make the list because I found a lot of books that I otherwise wouldn’t have discovered.
And you are now caught up.