It was a rough day. I have much to learn in the area of patience. Shane gave me a brilliant piece of advice last week. He said when ever I lose my temper, I should try and think about how I would react if someone else were treating my kids that way.
Oh the shame.
I would never ever ever allow someone else to throw tantrums like I do in front of my kids. I would never act that way in front of other people’s kids. So how did I get to this point where I could justify my behavior?
It is so frustratingly difficult to stop losing my temper. To stop the urge to scream for just five minutes to finish something. To stop scolding Caleb for making things so difficult and not helping me more.
I mean, seriously. When will I truly accept that God did not give him to me to make my life easier?! In fact, I’m pretty sure he is here to challenge me.
Shane and I had a good talk about my break down today. He talked about how he doesn’t get any breaks during the day and how stressful his work is now that he is responsible for finding work for people under him. Not an easy feat in this economy.
And then he said something that I hope I can embrace:
The sooner you realize that it’s all about the kids, the better things will be for you. Any free time you get is a luxury; it’s not a right.
I really need to make reading the Bible a priority. I tend to think I can figure things out on my own but again and again I realize that I need help and guidance just as much as my kids do.
But on a happy note, Caleb and I discovered another awesomeness homeschool perk. He was having trouble understanding my explanation about gravity so we headed to the internet for assistance. I found some great videos on the Discovery (Science) Channel about astronauts. He especially liked the one on using the potty in space. Boys.
What helps you from losing your temper when your kids are driving you nuts?
What is your favorite homeschool perk?
Do you have a favorite go-to website for educational videos?