Today was the second best day ever!! Joanna calls me a closet Christian. And it’s true that I’ve had a shaky relationship with God. I tend to acknowledge him when one of two things occurs:
1. I’m emotionally worn out and feel frustrated that I can’t get it together. When I feel like I need to be doing a better job.
2. When things are going amazingly well and I feel guilty for my good fortune because I can’t figure out why I should be so blessed.
It really is amazing how things sometimes seem to fall in place so perfectly that it’s very hard for me to ignore His presence. As I mentioned in the other post, I’ve been having a difficult time dealing with lack of sleep. Two nights ago, Ana was waking up every hour. No joke. I actually sent Shane in twice to put her back down and nearly cried violently because I was *so* tired and frustrated. The second time he went to soothe her, she was having none of it and I ended up feeding her. When I lay back down I prayed for Him to either make her sleep the rest of the night or help me to change my attitude. She woke up an hour later and as I was nursing her I had a thought that I should just try to do what I need to do and not dwell on how tired I am. Just make up my mind to be positive.
And so my day went on much better. I tried to push aside the negative thoughts and get as much done as I possibly could. I was feeling pretty good by the time Shane was supposed to get home.
Then he called and said he was going to have to work late… again. Not to worry. I’m having a good day. He got home at 8:30pm and was so relieved to see that I hadn’t lost my mind. In fact, he was so grateful that I actually offered to make him a pizza for a late dinner.
Ok. stop. I am making this post *way* too long. Get to the point already!
Today. It started off with breakfast at Starbucks. All by myself! I did spend about 90% of the time filling out paperwork for the dentist. But, I still enjoyed myself immensely.
Then I went to the dentist. All by myself! Who knew that a trip to the dentist could be so exciting?
Then I came home and was surprised at how much I missed Ana. I haven’t been away from her for 3 whole hours before! And I thought about how gosh darn lucky I am that I can say that.
Then Shane took Caleb to his dentist appointment and a miracle happened. Ana napped the entire time!! She had become famous for wanting to do nothing but eat and eat on every occasion that Shane took Caleb out. I made myself a cup of coffee and organized my yarn a little and knitted a few rows and watched about 30 minutes of Her Majesty Mrs. Brown. Perfect.