I’m feeling pregnant lately. My belly skin seems stretched to the max. I have a lot of Braxton-Hicks contractions. It makes me grouchy to have to bend over and pick something off the floor because it is so uncomfortable. And yesterday I wanted to go to bed at 7 pm, despite having slept 10 hours the previous night and getting a 1.5 hour nap. I know that pregnancy makes you tired, but that’s a bit ridiculous.
And this seems to have happened over the past few days. Maybe Eliza is having a growth spurt. I have been feeling and seeing her kicks more often and last night I felt a limb slide against my belly a few inches. I savor these moments though. I know it will be the last and it’s amazing to feel a baby moving within you.
I had my first appointment with one of the three Santa Cruz midwives I will be seeing. The office is very nice and I was surprised when the nurse offered me water or juice as I waited for the midwife. The only thing that concerned me is that the midwife says they will typically break the water to help move things along. I expressed my desire to not go this route, but I suspect it’s not going to be that easy since the alternative is for the on-call midwife to just hang around at the hospital and wait for nature to takes it course. It’s really annoying that things are set up this way. I don’t want to be pressured into doing something I don’t want to do. But on the other hand, I understand that they have other women to see and my unpredictable breaking of water might otherwise take them away from that.
Apparently, it’s not normal to be so painful when they break your water. Holly had said mine probably hurt so bad (with Charlotte) because she suddenly moved down into position. She actually used some technical terms but I can’t remember what they are. Well, all I know is that the resulting contraction hurt more than any other part of giving birth to Ana or Charlotte and I don’t see why I should risk having to go through that again when it’s not even a natural part of child birth.
Anyway, I’m really hoping to get some of my energy back because being tired *all the time* really stinks.