I realized that I had been having more meltdowns lately. While I feel awesome after running, I’ve had moments where I overreact and basically just lose my mind. After talking it over with my mom and some good friends (thank the dear Lord for friends!), I came to the conclusion that I was abusing body.
Going to bed late, waking up with the baby at 5am, nursing, and the biggest problem of all is that I was not eating enough. I already had a hard enough time eating enough before running. Now that I’m burning several hundred more calories, I think my body was breaking down with all the demands I was putting on it.
Mentally, mothers are hard-wired to serve others and our bodies are no different. If I’m not consuming enough food, my body will still take what nutrients it needs to produce breast milk. It will take nutrients that I need to maintain my own health in order to sustain my baby’s health. The scary thing is, I’m pretty sure I was not taking in enough calories to sustain much of anything.
Eating is a chore for me. Ever since I developed an awful dust mite allergy when pregnant with Charlotte, I go back and forth between having no sense of taste or a diminished sense of taste. (We live in a perfect dust mite-breeding climate year-round and we can’t afford to replace our carpet with wood.) It’s very discouraging to know you won’t be able to taste that juicy mushroom burger or creamy rich cheesecake.
I even thought about not running for 3 months, which is the amount of time I plan to nurse Eliza. I’ve had flashbacks from when I went a little nuts because I was nursing Ana while pregnant with Charlotte. I kept talking to women who had done both with no problem and I thought there was something wrong with me because I was struggling to do the same. Thankfully, my mom and aunt talked some sense into me. I weaned Charlotte and as soon as I dried up I instantly had a clear head.
I think nursing takes a much bigger toll on my body than I want to admit.
After not even a day of thinking I wouldn’t run for 3 months, I realized that isn’t going to make me happy. I really wanted to figure out how to continue running while nursing.
So I came up with a few things to change:
- Eat breakfast.
- Keep track of my water intake.
- Go to bed at 9pm instead of 10pm.
- Take fenugreek pills and add brewer’s yeast to my diet. (To help with milk production)
- Drink a large glass of chocolate milk every time I run to make up for calories burned.
I’ve been working on these things for 2 weeks now and I’m happy to report that it’s helping! I think I’ll be able to hang in there until August!